well i know, it's midnight again. and i supposed to be in bed and have a wonderful dream now. these days i watching GA in all my spare time and ... tears falling down last night when watching S1E04.

actually i don't like meredith, nor the words at the beginning and the end of each episode. but i really moved by S1E04, even i didn' t exactly understand why .

maybe, perhaps, probably, the dream buried in my heart waked up. yep, i wanted to be a doctor, esp a surgeon, when in my middle school, just in order to save people's life. naive, uh? but obviousely i'm not that strong, and cannot insist my dream. so i became what i am. yes, my profession now is stable, and somewhat i like figures, but, you know,  IT'S NOT A DREAM.

so when saw these guys struggling for their dream, the one I had, how can i help crying?

12:30, i must go to bed.